Fear is the feeling or condition of being afraid. My biggest fear as I transition from college student to teacher is the fear of the unknown. No one can tell me the future and what lies ahead, so I make the best out of every situation I am put in and replace the fear of the unknown with pure curiosity. I enjoy learning new things with each new day and being exposed to fresh ideas. I tend to be curious about how something works or why it is done. Curiosity tends to be quite contagious, so if an educator is curious, chances are their students will be too.
However, my fear of the unknown is not my only fear. My other fears as I embark on my journey to becoming a teacher are that my students will not listen to me and take me seriously. I need to develop the right tools and skills to make an impact on classroom management and create an understanding that my students need to respect me. I fear the overwhelming feeling with a lot to do, such as the responsibilities of planning, grading, and attending meetings. I fear I will not be able to meet the needs of all my students by being well diverse and knowing how to properly deal with some of their disabilities. I fear my student's parents will not support me and I will become intimidated by their responses, attitudes, and beliefs. I fear of not knowing the answer to a question that was asked of me and becoming embarrassed by it. I surely do not want to disappoint my students and let them down. Lastly, I fear of focusing too much on proper behavior in the classroom rather than allowing some things to happen on their own and working themselves out. I have to remember that sometimes chaos is a good thing.
While I fear quite a bit as a future educator, I believe my fears are normal. Starting anything new can make your stomach unsettled and make for long, restless nights as your anxiety runs wild. I look forward to addressing and confronting my fears as I continue on my journey and my fears will no longer be fears. I rather reflect upon my joyful moments on becoming an educator rather than what I fear.
Joy is the feeling of great pleasure and happiness. I always remind myself why I want to go into teaching and no, it is not because I will get my summers off. As I transition from college student to teacher my most joyful moment will be when I can take my creativity and love for teaching into practice. I look forward to being able to make an impact on a child's life, whether it be just a fraction or a whole. I want to share my passion with others and inspire them to do what makes them happy.
I also look forward to the joyful moments of working with kids and shaping the next generation. I want to share with the community of what is going on at the school I work for and how hard each educator tries to make the best environments for children to learn, grow, and prosper. I want to make a difference and continue to be a lifelong learner. Lastly, I want to be able to laugh with my students at my silly mistakes or one of my student's clever comments once in awhile. These are the moments I look forward to and will cherish.
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